New Year’s Eve. Tomorrow I re-start the Course. I am excited to see where it might take me this time.
Yesterday, at the Sunday ACIM group I attend, two lessons stand out. I woke up this morning thinking of the Zen story:
Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868–1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen. Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor’s cup full, and then kept on pouring. The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. “It is overfull. No more will go in!” “Like this cup,” Nan-in said, “you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?”
This Zen story was in my mind because yesterday’s meeting showed me that my cup is still overflowing. I have beliefs I need to let go of before I can master the Course. Yesterday’s meeting highlighted this for me. Comments such as “Unfortunately, I know him”, “He’s a Jerk”, biblical references such as “Go and sell all your possessions and give the money to the poor”, and song lyrics with scarcity beliefs – “I take much more than I need” … these comments in an ACIM meeting (until now) have caused me to want to jump up and down in the middle of the room, and start quoting from the Course. This morning, I woke up with the awareness that it is not other students that I must be concerned with. It is myself.
I have had these limiting beliefs:
- Course students should actually do the Course.
- Course students should not confuse other belief systems (such as the Bible) with the Course.
- Course students should at least make an attempt to recognize when they are judging.
The first thing I note in the three statements above is that I am “shoulding” all over myself. The second thing I note is that the three bullets are judgments. Time to let them go. “All things are lessons God would have ME learn.” This is not about other students. This is all about me! This is a perfect time to empty the tea cup! New Year’s Eve! The start of a new year.
On lighthouses…. Our fearless leader brought this up…. a wonderful message for me to remember as I begin the my journey through the Lessons:
“Many people spend too much time trying to be the captain of someone else’s boat. Learn to be a lighthouse and the boats will find their way.”